Currently I have no weight loss goals. At this point, I would like to maintain my weight and possibly put on weight as long as it is muscle and not fat! I have zero desire to have buldgy (is that even a word???) muscles....I don't want to look like a dude, but I would like to be toned.
I have not been to the gym since June 15th :( Having had a hysterectomy June 17th, I have physically been out of commission. My goal is to return to the gym on September 6th. I see the doctor next on August 7th and that is when I will talk to him about starting to exercise again.
Since the operation I have been feeling stressed. I think that having too much time to sit around think about the world and one's spot in it, is not always a good thing. I am not good at just sitting around . I like to be mentally and physically busy and I have found the recuperation and all the necessary "rest" to be emotionally difficult. Coupled with the worry that my fitness routine could possibly never get back to normal really bothers me. With all the stress I ended up getting down to 118 lbs and this is not good. I look a little like a skeleton and that is just gross. Not ideal. And I hate the thought that I could be losing muscle.
In terms of diet....I am still trying to eat healthy...though making some bad sugar related choices by continuing to eat chocolate bars and York mint patties at night. I have started eating chia seeds though...I put them in my water....which I would not recommend for most people. I tend to have a weird thing about food....I like biting apart little seeds...and I like foods that have a bizarre consistency. The chia seeds when soaked in water kind of make me think of tadpole eggs. That should really gross me out..but I love it in my water and it makes my water chewy. Yes. Its weird.
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